How did it happen?: First off, know that I am not on birth control for one main reason (well, two if you count our fear of the IUD). I am breastfeeding. The mini pill is the only thing you can take, and if you miss so much as ONE pill in a month, it makes your risk ten times greater than having taken no BC at all. So we opted out of that choice, and chose to go the 'breastfeeding is a natural contraception' route. Unfortunately, that only lasts for the first 6 months. haha A month later, baby #3 was obviously conceived! We were not 'careless' and used normal BC methods. *Although it may look different since some of you know that Jimmy really wanted to have another baby, now. I was not ready though, so we were not TTC.
How did we find out?: Last week I was quite moody. Jim kept suggesting that I must be pregnant for my sudden hormonal outbursts, since he remembers them from K's pregnancy. I regressed. I always know when I am pregnant, before I ever test, and I didnt feel any different (plus there was tons of cramping going on to divert me). Day before I tested we had a huge day planned with the kids, and I slept most of it due to feeling ill. That night Jim asked me if I needed anything from the store, cause he was going. I joked about wanting ice cream and a pregnancy test (cause of his constant remarks) and the silly guy brought me home a three pack suspecting I was serious! That night I had a crazy dream that I took a test and it was positive. There was my sign! I woke up super early that following morning and took one of the tests. Half awake, the obvious positive sign showed up. Shock set in. After starring at it for several minutes, as if I were still dreaming, I rushed into the bedroom. I punched Jim in the arm, threw the test at him, and yelled "You a*shole, you got me pregnant!" haha. (Oh what a memory that will always be.) In a blur, he woke up and looked at it saying "No you're not. You're not pregnant." I flicked on the light, threw the instructions at him, and within a minute he remarks "Oh sh*t, you're pregnant."...and thats how we found out. haha
How do I (we) feel?: After the initial shock of it all, I am okay with it. I LOVE being pregnant, birthing my children, and raising them. Yes, I know that Kadence will only be 17 months old when this baby is born (given my body does MUCH better than last time and I am able to carry to 40 weeks). Yes, I know that I just started school. Yes, I know that we are crazy. haha Jim is ecstatic though, and this is what he really wanted. And I am doing my courses online, which I can do pregnant and with three kids (Ethan is in school mostly anyways). As Jimmy has drilled it into my head, we are perfectly ready for this. We are buying a house, we have stability, our kids are super close, and Ethan most of all will freak when he realizes he gets another baby to obsess about. haha Kadence is my only worry because she is attached to my hip 110% (and my boob hehe). It will all work out though, and I know this gift was given to us for a reason.
I only pray that you all support us in this, as you have done in the past with all of my other children. As always, I never take more than a day to regroup and do what needs to be done! I am strong, my family is strong, and we can do this =)
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